The second bit of psycho! December 29, 2009

We got up around 11am to messages that were sent at 8am. we have no idea what triggered them. Three of them in rapid succession, for no reason.

Well here i go again. i no ur starting ur job 2nite becuz i still have not seen u i dont no whats going on..anyway i would like the grandchild book i got Buggy brought back i didnt think 2 say it..thought it was self explanitory..also got his lion for here..unless i will b cing him less now which i no is ur plan..she said she was looking into a job out in spencer which i kno she is not going 2 drive out here 2 drop Buggy off and then go back out 2 spencer. so i already no my gramma time is going 2 b limited. i alsowould like to keep the rocker while ur ou in spencer. it is an antique and was a gift when i was at least being treated like a gramma..right now i don t no what u would call me. but im not feeling very loved by my son whom i raised so much better than what im cing now. u never did talk 2 much and u have a chip on ur shoulder about how spoiled sarah is and how deprived u were.. not tru all around. we need 2 talk. really. do u think u can spare any time 4 me?

Just as an aside, the rocking chair, was a shower gift. and the book, was a christmas gift to the baby. I assumed it would go home with him.

And i dont want 2hear we have been moving cuz again u didnt ask us 4 help or anything..if u want me 2 leave u alone just say it..dont use buggy to punish me

Why doesn’t moving count as a reason to be busy? just because we don’t need you to move our stuff for us doesn’t mean it’s easy.

Also..dont no what 2 tell nicole..she made everyone fudge..cookies..and popcorn balls.. u never came back so i could never give them 2 u.. it is VERY obvious that ur family doesn’t matter anymore. i can’t deal with that. so anyway when u c cousin nicole let her no u never came back 2 get them. and jr. say thank u 2 her.. 4 some reason all ur manners went out the window.. so at 26 i got 2 remind u 2 thank people..also r u gonna need me 2 watch LO this week at all? if so i need 2 no ahead of time so I can get grammy to help me. i figure u didn’t bring him all weekend so u wont let me c him this week either. i can’t believe ur dong this 2 us. y jr? y r u doing this? keeping LO from us? we didn’t get 2 c him much at all this christmas weekend. i didn’t hear from u at all..haven’t seen LO since friday. i bet her family has though huh?

yes… my dad saw him saturday, because we were moving stuff into his house, Buggy slept through most of it. and nobody was butthurt. And WHY would we be comming back to your house at the end of the night.. you never even made a peep about wanting us to. We are NOT mind readers.

So now Scabbers starts to try and reason with this lunatic, reminding her that he made sure to come visit her christmas eve cause we would be visiting alot of people on christmas. and how we got to her house at 11am and hung around til 3 or so before heading out to see my mom. we had to be home and settling down by 7 cause Scabbers works overnights now and wanted a nap.

everybody saw him 2hrs? im not counting the nap and also i was cooking both christmas day and eve preparing for company..no not 2day i am cleaning.. i no he was with them saturday 2..dont bullshit me.. am i rite? he was with her family saturday? i no u were busy cuz sarah txt u 4 a ride..where was buggy then? u must have been packing.. i am just gonna go to arizona next year.. melissa wanted us to go but i said no i need to be here for Buggys firts christmas. I wont make that mistake ever again. then u wont have to even bother with us.. u wont have to fit us in.. u can talk 2 dad from here on out i have nothing more to say. except i want to see Buggy this week, when? and just so u no it was very important 2 me 2 c him christmas day. if i gotta take the back seat 2 her family 4 the holidays then i cant fight it but how sad that my own son is a part of it.. and the extended family thanx u 4 the 20min they got..

acutally we spent MUCH more time at her house, and yes Buggy took a nap, but he’s 4mos old. he needs to. Scabbers says something to effect of he doesn’t know why she’s so upset and he thinks we’ve been plenty fair to everyone. None of my extended family has seen him at all. so his should be happy. (Just for reference my parents are divorced, my dad opens gifts on xmas eve to keep my mom happy)

well what time did u leave her dads on christmas eve? and what time did u leave her mothers on christmas day? the truth..no bullshit.. cuz that is really my issue here..it was a holiday. i got shit on thanksgiving..it’s not my fault she wasnt speaking with her mother last christmas.. i no she had said b4 that she didn’t want to come at all on christmas cuz she didn’t get to c her mom last year.. just let me no if this is the kind of shit im gonna have to deal with.. cuz i cant. i wont. i wi.l just go away for the holidays from now on..then who cares. if u were home all day then y didnt u think of us saturday? we would have liked 2 c him then..do u want 2 b left alone? i mean just say the word..cuz that is the way it looks..and feels..

Why should we be forced to keep track of the TIME we spend at different places? Also, Thanksgiving, my entire family had plans, we spent the whole day at her house. and I never said I wanted to spend the whole day at my mothers, my mother and I fight, alot. we can be good for a couple hours, but that’s it and we know it. I was entertaining the idea of not going anywhere on christmas.

On satuday I had to work. and before I went to work I decided to spend a little time with one of my friends, who is home on a school break from her school in Florida. We live in MA. She had yet to meet my son and I thought it would be nice.

AND AS A BONUS! Here’s the jewel she sent Scabbers yesterday after I didn’t call her back the night before. She called while I was at work (I work at night, 6 days a week most weeks, the SAME TIME EVERY NIGHT. And she left no voicemail, just a missed call so I assumed it wasn’t important and maybe she got ahold of Scabbers. I get out of work at 1030 at night. she gets up at 530 in the morning. I wasn’t going to call her back!

so..whatsup? i figured i would contact u cuz ur not gonna contact me..u remember me..ur mother? u have 1 u no. i no i;m the shittyest mother in the world. ive never done anything 4 u..never been there 4 u.. oh wait! no thats definatly NOT E! i dont no what ur problemis jr but i shouldnt have 2 chase u around 2 c how things r. im so sorry i gave u that car. especially now. u treat me like shit and i dont deserve it. ur father and i went without on our anniversary so u could have that car. thought u should no. anu ur way of thanking me is i got a whole hour and a half with my grandson on his first christmas..i didnt get 2 hold him or play with him.. or spend any time with him. thanx. oh well im going to read to bring Brian to work. kiss LO 4 me. tell him i love him and i miss him. have a nice day!

Our car broke beyond repair the week before we had bug. Obviously we were in a rough spot for buying a car but seeing as we both work within walking distance of home that we would tough it out for a few weeks and such. she bought a car for us. we didn’t want it after the shit she pulled at his birth. but Scabbers was really really sure it was a one time loss of sanity.

he was wrong.

Thanks for reading it all… maybe it entertained you

The first bit of psycho! December 29, 2009

For the record I’d never had a problem with Scabbers Mom until this point. I’ve only known her for 1 1/2 years or so. I assumed she was sweet and understanding. she always had been up until this point. Apparently that was only while I was pregnant.

Buggy was born on Thursday, everyone was there including her, my family, everyone and their left-handed cousin. They FINALLY left around 10pm. Friday morning at about 8am people were appearing again off and on, taking the baby and passing him about. My siblings got a visit in, Scabbers grandparents and such. Scabbers Mom too. Friday night a nurse finds me in tears trying to feed the baby and him not responding well because I was so upset (whole other reasons for that, not important to the story) So she thinks it would be best to keep visitors out for Saturday. Maybe the calm of not having people around will help me to bond and not feel so overwhelmed and stuff.

It’s midnight when she’s telling me this. So we weren’t going to CALL Scabbers Mom (or anybody) at that hour. Luckily for us we won’t have to be up super early to call either because almost everyone we know has a facebook. and the people who don’t wouldn’t be wandering to the hospital unannounced anyway.So Scabbers puts a post up on there just to let everyone know instead of them showing up at the maternity ward and being turned away. It’s seemed curteous enough.

Saturday morning the hospital line rings, we think it’s the nutrition people asking what we want for breakfast. It’s his mom. She’s screaming at him, about how we’re keeping her from seeing her baby, and why would we do this to her. He gets her off that phone only by promising to go downstairs and call her on his cell. He leaves disappears for about 20mins. Says she refused to talk to him and he was talking to his father while she shouted like a banshee in the background about me. She called again about an hour later and insisted he talk to her. He leaves again and is gone for about an hour. He gets back and looks livid, I’ve never seen him this angry before. She apparently threatened to not drive us home from the hospital (car was dead) If we didn’t let her up there. And claiming she was THIS mad because we didn’t call her to tell her. At midnight, when we JUST had a baby, she lucky we gave any notice.

This goes on all day, and apparently she covered my wall on FaceBook with horrible things, no idea what, they were deleted by time I got online the next day, but bad enough that my father called to ask if I was okay, and said he would do whatever I needed of him until I was back home. She wrote some real jewels for status messages, getting the whole rest of her family in an uproar about lawyers and her rights as a grandparent to get visitation. So the rest of her family hates me now because I ruined her life that day. I’m getting text messages from Scabberss little sister to please let her up because her mom is being unneedingly rough with her. (She’s 15 and a bit mouthy, but nothing her mom needed to hit her for)

Sunday, She comes to the hospital and says nothing of the day before! Smiles and hugs hubby and he’s acting normal again too. everyone is. I’m lost but just glad nobody’s screaming at me. They pretty much ignore me and just cuddle the baby, I take a shower while they’re there.

I come home to a private message on Facebook (which is apparently not a proper communication channel for me to use, but okay when she does it)

If you wanted a day to yourself, you should have said so..you told me on one of the days you were helping me that Scabbers got it wrong and you didnt mean the grandparents. your own words. so now I dont know how to take you Kiinu..at least Im being honest..I hate that I have to communicate this way..facebook..if you had just told us last night..im not saying I would have been happy, but I would have understood it better..especially if I had known about the text messages..why would you not tell us about it?? and as far as your dad goes, i didnt mean them..I think they are great. very pleasant so to them I do owe an apology. I meant your mom..so your pissed oh my…well welcome to the real world..try being honest next time..guaranteed it will work..i wont bother you at home dont worry..my friends were mentioning lawyers not me..like your friends they felt my pain. thank god for them. if I am allowed to see Buggy, just let my son know. I must say this is a Kiinu I dont know. But I do wish you had just told us to our face yesterday. I would say all this to your face but you banished us for the day so it is impossible.

She visisted til 9… I wasn’t aware that I wasn’t having visitors til midnight. I guess she sent this saturday but I didn’t see it til later. And I had mentioned only having close family visitors for a few days. Before I knew how my recovery was going to be, I’m pretty sure I can change my mind after having my stomach cut open?

Everyone is acting like it never happened now even Scabbers. It only got brought up when she had some other problem with me. Scabbers doesn’t want to hear about it anymore, he took my side while we were there and now he thinks it should just go away and I should act just the way I did with her before. I’m not hugging that crazy woman!

As selfish as this is I feel like she ruined my special day almost. I know it wasnt’ the day of his birth, but it was still ‘our’ time, y’know?

Oh, and to this day she thinks I owe HER an apology for this.

Ranting. XD January 30, 2009

I was at a friends birthday party and they were ordering a pizza from Big Y (The grocery store I work at)

they were talking about one of the Pizza guys and making fun of him because he’s worked there for years. Calling him a Lifer like it’s a bad thing that he’s kept his job for years. I mean.. it’s not a glamorous job. But it’s not a BAD job either.

They then remembered that I work there, and were like ‘Oh! you’re not going to be a lifer too are you?’ Like it would be a horrid thing if I kept my job while half the world is losing theirs.

I ignored it and just brushed it off. But all I can think about now is that the guys making fun of my co-worker are living off of the govornment. One of them has a legally disabled wife, and a daughter, so he has no job. They just live in a crappy apt. driving a car that was given to them and using a cellphone that was also given to them.

It’s not like his wife won’t get her disability checks if he has a job. I’m pretty sure she’s supposed to get those even if he’s working. except, y’know, they could live in an apt. where the heat works.. or even in a house, like my co-worker.. who owns his own house and is perfectly happy working where he is for the money he gets.

I don’t see why being a ‘lifer’ at any job is really a bad thing. I mean if you want or need more that’s one thing.. but holding a job for a long time in our economy is an accomplishment in itself it seems. They laid off alot of people last month from our store.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! December 25, 2008

I’ve made out like a bandit!!!

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Haha. Scabbers and I are alive, we’ve just been… busy? Or something like that. Paying off the car ($980?!?!?!!!). Paying the Rent a week later *twitch twitch* and THEN having Christmas presents needing buyage. it’s been crazy but we’ve come out mostly unscathed, I’m pretty proud of us for it too :)

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Scabbers passed his liscensing test and it’s comming in the mail.. He starts selling policies in January, which is like… perfect timing.. who doesn’t need to check out new insurance options in January? My taxes will come back and we’ll catch up on the bills (I consider two weeks missed not bad honestly and we skipped the bills that won’t charge late fees HAH!)

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We’ve got enough food in the house to live for another month or so. We got gifts for all my siblings and parental, and all his siblings and parentals. And the extended family is getting presents from our loot money haha. Well.. and my check that I couldn’t pick up til after christmas bah.

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We spent the night before Christmas Eve at Bobberts so that we could be there for his early Christmas stuff. Had to leave there by 11 though, I had to work ALL DAY. And I realize that 6hours isn’t that bad.. but I was awake all day and it was weird.

After work was over we scooted our butts up to his moms for Christmas Eve, sleeping over there and doing christmas with them. It was different, but fun! I got all sorts of sketching stuff from them. and they fed us til we were ready to explode, then offered up pie. XD

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But now we’re home and I’m writing this post wrapped up in this lovely blanket/jacket/robe thingy.. it’s soft and warm and it doesn’t fall off of me.. and best of all! Wiggy seems entirely uninterested in the fabric it’s made of and would rather lay next to me on the fuzzy blanket ^_^

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See everyone else at New Year!!

Teh Car November 16, 2008

I realize I JUST said the car was fixed..

But uh.. it decided it didn’t want to drive anymore. XD While we were in the middle of the road, in the middle of doing the paper route. It just flat out stopped. We could turn it on if it was in park or neutral.. it would turn on and the engine would kinda.. er.. work? It was like the engine was having an asthma attack

Then he’d throw it into gear and it would turn off.. XD

So it’s back at the shop.. ughhhh

Good news though.. a cousin of Scabbers is looking into selling us a truck.. :) So hopefully we’ll have that.. and we can just.. kick my car in the lights XD

I really should post more November 13, 2008

But I don’t.. XD

I’m tired and cranky for some reason recently.. Scabbers started his new job.. We got the car fixed(mostly) I’m applying to my own insurance oo0o0o.. growing up yey! haha

Work is still fun atleast..

The holidays are comming up!! YAY!! I still have no clue what I’m doing or where I’m going haha..

At least I tried to update.. meh

Rude as Shit October 18, 2008

Yes. Rude as shit.

Some people are. And mean. Obviously I knew this beforehand, but holy crap I just got hit in the face by how mean some of the people I know are.

yeah that’s his little sister – Me
Wow, he sure didn’t get all the looks in his family! -Someone else

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What color do you think I should dye my hair for halloween?
Single?

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Oh no! you are NOT driving! Kiinu take his keys.
I was just popping the trunk.. the latch is.. -Scabbers this time
Don’t give me shit! put the beer in the trunk and give her the keys!
*sighs and shakes head*
Don’t you shake your head at me! If I catch you driving with her after drinking I will KILL you
Ten minutes after this a call from a friend “Boldface Speaker just left the house.. Kiinu’s driving right? We think he’s going to follow you home”

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Hopefully tomorrows family gathering has a more positive impact on my brain

LAUNDRY TIME! October 4, 2008

Our dryer broke

Just in time for it to get cold outside

So, I became a creative genius

And this is what our house looks like now

the first two pictures are of our Kitchen. and the last is our bathroom.

Isnt that fantastic? I’m ridiculously proud of myself for this.

R.I.P. Echo August 22, 2008

So, when Scabbers was 17 his parents gave him a car as a combination of Christmas and his birthday. They went out with him and they found a car that would last him a long time. a car that would be good for his pocket and good for his age and y’know. a GOOD car.

In 2001 Scabbers drove a brand new Toyota Echo off the lot. He’s had that car ever since. He’s been through hell in that car. Hell and good times. I’ve heard some crazy stories about it. It’s been stolen. and in a few crashes. one involved rolling down a hill and into a tree, though I don’t know how true that one was. And about a ear ago it got stolen. It’s oil tank was slashed and there was some cosmetic damage, missing CDs.. but it came back.. it was recovered and given back to Scabbers.

And in the time I’ve known him. He’s treated that car SO nicely. I got my liscense in it. We slid down a hill in the snow in it once.. that was kinda fun XD

But as of yesterday morning.. the Echo is no more..

Scabbers was driving to work. He was on Rt. 20 in Charleton. There’s four lanes of traffic. The rightmost lane was backed up, but there was a green light. so Scabbers goes around the line of cars and is heading straight through. A car pulls out of the HoneyFarms infront of him and is turning into the other lane of traffic, the one going the other way. The driver doesn’t even look at him and shoots out infront of him going… really fast. He hit their right front quarter panel and came to a dead stop. The other car kept going, up over the curb, brushed a lightpost before stopping on a lawn.

Scabbers is alright. He’s got some I’ve-Been-In-A-Crash soreness and a couple cuts on his wrist where his watch snapped. But the Echo is dead.. He’s very upset. And we’re currently carless… so My car is getting fixed and insured this weekend. I wasn’t in a big hurry before. I mean I don’t NEED it until the winter months. But between the two of us we do need one car.

Lookit the poor little echo

Why Me? August 14, 2008

I work in a deli.
I have a uniform. It declares that I must wear black or tan pants with a white collared shirt. I like this.. that means I only needed to buy shirts when I got my job. And because they were white I need to wear a black tanktop under them. Because white bras didn’t make sense to own before. I never wore white and they’d show through my really thin old black (grey) shirts. So I just assumed wear a black tanktop underneath.

It is warm out.
I walk to work. It’s not a bad walk. it’s shaded for a good portion of it. it’s flat land mostly. But it IS summer. therefore wearing two shirts is a liiittle warm. So I tend to walk in my tanktop and my work pants.

This is how it looks.

I think it’s decent. I’m covered. It’s modest… it’s something I wear for wooork. I’m not prancing about in a little black cocktail dress and heels or applebottom jeans.

I walk on a main road.
To get there I have to go past the rotary in my town. It’s a pretty busy road. There are alot of cars. there’s a highway offramp there and all. I walk on the sidewalk and lots of cars pass me.. sometimes people I know are driving by and they offer me a ride. That’s always nice.

Some fools in their cars think it is FUNNY.
To drive past me and scream out their windows. or to honk at me and make lewd hand gestures.
It doesn’t happen everyday.. its happening less now that people are headed back to schools. so I’m going to assume it was mostly college kids or something. But why? WHYYY? do you need to drive past someone and screeeam out your window. I can’t understand what you’re saying, you’re driving too fast.

And you scare the bejeebus out of me when you honk at me. I can hear that through my headphones. and its alarming to suddenly hear HONKHONK!! in the middle of something that should be my soothing music. It’s even scarey when I hear it through my loud growly music.

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This leaves me wondering. Why me? What did I do to you? I’m not dressed to be catcalled. I’m not shaking my butt down the road. I’m just attempting to not dehydrate.. again XD